At first, I was scared because I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t know the difference between dementia and Alzheimer’s. I didn’t know – I didn’t know anything. Now that I know that the mood swings are normal, that helps. I try to not fear too much about the fact that it runs in the family. Because Alzheimer’s does run in families.
Part of me wonders if the fact that my memory isn’t working as well as it used to, if that’s a sign that I may have Alzheimer’s one day … I go to worst-case scenario mode. At the back of my mind, I have that fear, where I’m like, “I will have Alzheimer’s some day,” especially since I relate to my grandmother so well, even though I didn’t know her that well before she got sick. It makes me rethink how to handle life thinking that that might be something that’s in the future… if I get Alzheimer’s by the time I’m 70, I want to fully enjoy what I have now.